Origin of maze-are-mysteries

According to Collins dictionary, maze means web, confusion, tangle, labyrinth, imbroglio and complex network. Maze to me also mean May's. It's my blog and mine only. I like to name my things in names that are meaningful and me, solely me and solely mine. So, all my blogs are named by me and only me, my thoughts and my opinions. My uniqueness and specialness. That's why I came up with the name maze-are-mysteries (May's all mysterious), it means May's all about mysterious. It consists of my name and the pronunciation, wording, word, meaning and purpose of mysteries. That's why I came up with the name maze-are-mysteries (May's all mysterious). maze is for May's, are is just to total up that May's all, mysteries is mysterious, can't figure it out. So, it's May's all mysterious (maze-are-mysteries).

According to Collins dictionary, mysteries means puzzle, problem, question, secret, riddle, enigma, conundrum and teaser.

maze also means May's. mysterious is me, I'm mysterious. maze-are-mysteries is all about me, I'm all about mysterious, my whole blog is a mystery and stories of me, myself, I, my and mine. I'm telling all of my mysteries out.

Maze are mysteries. All mazes are mysteries.

To the person in my head

You don’t think I don’t know what you are doing. You had been stopping me from achieving my success from the very start. You told me a lot of negative things and even prevent me from speaking the truth. You know what truth is? Truth is, I don’t need you.

You know you inhibited me from doing a lot of things, things I deemed are meaningful and beneficial to me but you told me time and time again not to do those by indirectly making me sleepy and sleep, sucking my happiness and energy, making me lonely and had no friends, you made my eyesight worse, you brought so many scars and harm to me and yet you still can be so proud and happy of yourself, living the life that I never thought could live and because of you.

How many times have I wanted to tell myself not to think about it, good and positive. You know what, you made me feel inferior, self-abased and all of us! Yes, I hate you, all my life. Only through baring myself can I finally know your true colours and my true colours, what I'm capable of and what harm you had brought me. Okay, you really want to play? Do not regret, I will play with you. So I will start from writing and as I age, I will do more things to discover myself and bare your true colours. Just watch me.

You don’t think I don’t know who you are. I don’t ever wish to see you again who you are. You had hurt me again and again and you are still hurting me now.

Going my way

This is to you who knows it is you: I wouldn’t let you define me or stop me. I can feel your negativity. You just want everyone to fail and you succeed, not knowing how much effort they put in because you have the power. You want the best of yourself and never share your fruits of labour to everyone. You are the one, you are selfish, greedy, thinking you are always right, thinking about yourself, disgusting, shitty person, basically just worse than anyone on Earth. I want to let you know how disgusting a person you are.

Get a life, get a grip on your life and stop controlling other people and wanting them to fail. Everyone has their rights, everyone has their rights to succeed. You had been stopping people and creating obstacles from people from improving. Why have you do that? Why would you do that? I have to write my feelings and thoughts out because I want everyone to hear and be heard and tell the truth. I had always have better vision and imagination about this country and everything but you chose to deny all these that people feel and think of, that this would be a more liberal country.

You had to make us so tiny about ourselves that we feel very limited and restricted in everything we do and do you even think about us? You just so proudly think about yourself and wants everyone to do the same, think about you, while where do we put ourselves? We cannot even speak and think what we want without being restricted. You are very selfish and you should start realizing yourself. How we all suffer, how we lose ourselves, how we only think about you and put you in the front, how you made us suffer, how you do not have a mind of your own, how you only want benefits, how you make people feel about themselves, how you destroy every one of us, how you make us all who we are not.

You should start waking up. Waking up to your own selfishness, greediness, egoistic, and denying us of our rights. What have you got the rights to make us so tiny and molecule in the eyes of ours and eyes of others, while you just sitting there like a ‘king’ and make everyone feel so small about themselves. If I were you, if I were to have the opportunity to be ‘queen’, I wouldn’t let that happen to my people and my country. I would put others first before myself, I would have my own mindset, I wouldn’t make people feel less than themselves, I would let people chase their own dreams and ambitions and I would do so much to see the country succeed. Can you do as much as I can? I highly doubt so.

Let me tell you, I will not let you get in my way. People like you should rot in hell. You cannot stop me from getting what I want. Maybe from right now I will not listen to you, I will head my own advices and go my own way. Maybe from now I will not let you get in my way. Maybe from now you are just a stranger to me. I really hate myself to say this, to say negative of anybody, but you made me hate myself, my thoughts, everything about me and around me so much. You are not even living in my life, how can you say and how do you know about me? People have their lives to live and we live our own lives.

To haters

Have they disturb you or made you angry in any way? Can you tell me? What wrong had we done? We are just humans, we live our lives. You hate on everyone, except yourself. What makes you think you can do that. I love everyone. Love story happens in every one of us, not just you. True love does not simply just appear, Someone needs to wake you up and tell you how they really feel. If anyone does not write, I will write. I had it, I had it enough, I had everything inside me and I really feel very upset and disappointed. I want to tell my story and encourage those who are not willing to share, because you know, we all have our rights and how we lead and live our lives. If you ever did something wrong, I will write again because I can’t take it that you are putting the blame on everyone of us and made us feel so small and useless about ourselves. Love, that is all within us, we create our own miracles, happiness, love, friendship, relationship, it is all us. How we and not you to live our lives, because we are not crippled, short-changed or anything. We certainly know how to live our lives. You know, people can be very successful and remarkable in their lives, you got to make them feel ashamed again and again. Don't you find yourself thick-skinned and disgusting, unless of course you have a valid reason for it which I doubt you, I really doubt you, because you gave more disappointments than you gave results. Are you responsible for our lives? You 'help' us to live our lives then leave us abandon to ourselves when the time comes. From now on, I will only see what I want to see and wouldn’t join you in your competition or any negativity. Only God knows what you did. I don’t want to be like you, cold-hearted.

To "you" who hates me

Dear _____,

You know who you are. You know you have hurt me a lot. I just wanted to be friends with you. I didn't know why I said those things out. But I hope you know what you did too. You know these 7 years I lived in regret even though I apologized to you. I don't want another fight with you, I just want to move on, move forward from my past. 7 years passed and I still hadn't let go and forget that incident. I want to and I need to write down because it has caused me so much, nearly my entire part of my most precious life. I will keep continue to write. For the past 7 years, I cried day and night and I ended up deliberately neglecting my studies, my CCA, my thoughts, my ideas, my dreams, my future. Every time I'm about to succeed, you kept bringing me back to the past. What did I do to hurt you so badly?

I love writing a lot. But you know you stopped me from doing what I love, what I like. Everyday, I don't feel like living any more, like I'm not me any more. I feel like I'm living in a nightmare and I don't want to wake up because I'm not me. In my mind is always a blank, always a circle even after I tried very hard to listen and put in the effort to study, I still could not make it. I kept blaming myself. I know we both hurt that's why I have never blamed you.

"Now I just want to be happy."